Awak Suka Saya Tak?

Assalamualaikum wbt and salam sejahtera. *dont laugh when you read this entry ya!*

ASST? aahh finally I found that novel and finished read it already. actually last year I have heard about it but I just buat dont know. and fyi few days/weeks ago Dr.Epstina Aqilah told me about that novel. she told me why she like that novel. as you expected she told me what the novel story about actually. and at that time I felt it sound interesting. yesterday I went to Popular at AEON Jusco Bkt Tinggi. seriously I try my best to find that novel but I can't find it. I've been go pusing-pusing at the same place but still can't find it. till at moment when suddenly my sis "adik!! awak suka saya tak? aku dah jumpa!". ya Allah, seriously it really close to the place that I was standing. the cover look very similar to me. did I saw it before? did my auntie bought it? went back home and I read it from last night.hehe.

I love novel. I cant deny it. I read and love novel since I was 12th. maybe because of my mum. after UPSR and PSRA I started to read few of my mum's collections. bila pergi pesta buku banyak betul novel yang kami borong.haha. but in year 2010 I stop reading because of PMR. after a year tak layan novel, then I lost my mood to read them. but after few times flies.. oh yeah that mood already come back!! I only read 2 of my new novels. the rest I read again my mum's collections that I've read before. waste time? whatever!! many novels are my favourite. not all of them but most of them. Im really sure I've read more than 100 novels??! or more??! maybe =)

MANISNYA CINTA - I love this novel. that guy a pilot.. too romantic too caring too funny too mystery. I've fallen in love with Nazmi. UCAPKAN KAU RINDU - this story. saya tak akan pernah bosan membacanya. sangat suka. Adham! adakah kau benar-benar wujud di dunia ini? YANG KU CARI - written by auntie Mimie. auw can I be that girl. Aryana, alangkah indahnya kalau aku adalah kau. Zahim terlalu sempurna buatmu. kisah ini terasa dekat dengan diri saya. I want to live in this story. and many more novels. if want me to story memang tak habis lah gamaknya. and the latest one *yang saya baru baca* ASST? ya Allah.. apakah?

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim~ *I feel nervous* okay lets start. this novel this story. I felt like it was my story even I know its not! maybe some of you can't get what I mean actually. and I also dont know how to tell you guys. I dont know why but I can feel my feeling more towards non-malay guys. not all of time but sometimes only. and mostly chinese and few korean. ya Allah. not every malay are muslim but most of them are muslim. not all of chinese aren't muslim. adakah jika saya yang masih berumur 17 tahun ini berfikir mengenai bakal suaminya berdosa? salahkah kita merancang lelaki bagaimana yang kita ingin jadikan raja di hati yang selalu membimbing kita? last year cikgu saya kata umur macam kami dah patut pikir pasal bakal suami.. *bukan saya kata*

yeah I've imagine two situation dimana I've met him when he already convert to Islam and another one not yet. and of course I hope he convert to Islam because he really love Islam Allah swt and Rasulullah saw. how I wish he was like Hilman. even he was new but he knows about Islam better than a person that already born as a muslim. even Im a muslim I still need someone that can guide me. Hilman, ku dambakan seorang lelaki sepertimu seoarang suami sepertimu. petah mengaji, petah berbicara tentang Islam, sangat taat kepada parents dan keluarga biarpun berlainan agama, seorang ketua yang sangat merendah diri, seorang kekasih yang sangat caring dan sangat menjaga orang yang dikasihinya, and the most important part seorang hamba yang sangat taat, tidak rela menjadi hamba cinta selain daripada menjadi hamba kepadaNYA, dan sentiasa meletakkanNYA yag paling atas di dalam carta hatimu.

dia tidak bersetuju dengan cara bercouple, sama seperti prinsip saya. wujudkan lelaki seperti Hilman? dimanakah dia berada?Hilman terlalu mementingkan ISLAM, ALLAH swt, RASULULLAH saw, PARENTS. ya Allah ya Rahman ya Rahim, ENGKAU pertemukanlah aku dengan hambaMU yang begitu taat kepadaMU seperti watak Hilman ini. yang boleh membimbing aku untuk sentiasa berada di jalanMU. amin~~ saya sangat tertarik bila dia sentiasa membaca ayat-ayat suci AL-Quran dan berdoa sebelum mencium dahi isterinya. such a good husband.

saya inginkan seorang suami yang sangat mementingkan Islam Allah swt Rasulullah saw Parents. yang menitikberatkan solat berjemaah dan pembacaan ayat suci Al-Quran. saya sedar saya bukanlah seorang perempuan yang baik. tetapi saya mengharapkan bakal suami yang lebih baik untuk membimbing saya dan sentiasa mengingatkan saya yang selalu lupa dan leka ini. yang akan berjalan beriringan bersama saya menuju syurga firdausi~ amin ya rabbal 'alamin.

*I dont really care who is he actually. asalkan dia adalah seorang muslim yang benar-benar muslim.* :')

then saya sangat mencemburui Puteri Intan Zulaikha. dan sangat mengaguminya. kenapa cemburu? kerana Hilman begitu mencintai dirinya. sentiasa melindunginya. mempunyai ayah dan abang yang terlalu menyayanginya dan menjaga nya dengan sepenuh hati mereka. saya tiada abang. ayah apatah lagi. dia hanya seperti lumpur yang hanya akan muncul saat banjir atau air mulai surut. dan mengapa pula kagum? dia mempunyai semangat keazaman yang sangat tinggi. dia jatuh dan dia bangun semula walaupun kadang-kadang susah juga untuk dia bangkit semula. semangat dia kental.. saya harap saya ada semangat itu~

sincerely : Dr Filzah Faiqah

latihan MD ~

Assalamualaikum wbt and annyeong~

ect saya sangat lah penat. dari atas, kepala till bawah, kaki semua berdenyut. for me track merentas desa for SAMTiSH paling jauh kot. :'(

saya yang hanya berjalan dengan high+medium speed pon dah semput.. btw budak yang jalan with low speed pun pancit lebih awal than me. apakah? saya lari pun berapa saat je sebab ada puppy nak ikut. saya tak takut tapi as a muslim korang mestilah paham kan.

after 3 suku dari setengah perjalanan saya jalan alone je. pertengahan jalan, dah mula bernafas guna mulut. jeng jeng jeng. then dada dah mula sakit. then kepala dah mula berdenyut. dia dah datang~~

tahan punya tahan sampai suatu ketika *start dari situ* saya dah mula sesak nafas. oxygen yang saya hirup tak cukup. so otak pun kekurangan oxygen. checkpoint nya jauh2 pulak tu. bila dah sampai CP berat pula hati nak cakap dekat cikgu. mengapakah?

till saya jumpa akak2 STAM. the first 3 person that prihatin. *sampai air mata bertakung dah* hee.. then im alone back. seriously saya dah tak tahan sangat. kuatkan kaki melangkah sampai pintu pagar pertama *ada 3 orang mr.pbsm* saya jalan tunduk je. then suddenly "wei" one of them called me. act depan belakang saya tak ada orang, jarak macam 4-6 kereta. i looked at him. then "ko okay tak?" saya just buat isyarat tangan + anggukan *tak larat gila weyh*

sampai kantin terus cari kerusi weyh. hahaha. keluar segala macam haba haha. after 9-16 minutes baru nampak kelibat nabila adilah shikin atin and others.

sesungguhnya filzah faiqah menyerah kalah la for this Friday~~ TT_TT **hw for tomorrow banyak~~

long way to go~~

Assalamualaikum wbt and annyeong. long time rasanya tak menaip dekat blog ni. hehe actually got few things to story but yeah as time flies, I forgot about all of them. and I think like not really important to story about those things. what will happen in this year? wallahua'alam. btw saya turun kelas. so what? aku tau la ko pandai, so shut up okay! 4Firdaus (4FIR) --> 5Ma'wa.. got 33 students because a person already moved. 10 of 33 was ex-sg bert, or bak kata Cikgu Suria Hani, mini sg bert di kg jawa. and 16 people from 4Fir last year. XD

what I feel? urmmmm feel really different with last year. yeah, totally different! last year sakit sikit already dont want to go to school, but this year? last Tuesday till today actually I'm not feeling well but I still want to go to school and keep telling myself that I must and need to go! last year, to be honest I didnt do most of my homework except for bio and maths. bad student right! last year always talk about sg bert but this year I'm trying to not always talk about it. last year always talking thinking singing about kpop. but this year I try my best to forget about it when I'm at school. so please stop talking about kpop at school!! before most of free time even time tengah buat hw at school I keep singing kpop song but nowadays I changed it to zikirullah. rasa tenang~~~ =)

actually kan before we start sesi persekolahan last week, atin and I ada buat perjanjian. what? ahha nak lupakan sg bert. sounds like kejam kan. no la, we didnt meant to forget sg bert because we really love sg bert. it just like we wanna kurangkan bercakap mengingat and bla..bla..bla about sg bert like we did last year. because that feeling make me feel really down and my result also went down. so, nasihat saya terimalah apa sahaja dengan seadanya dan jangan pernah cuba membanding beza kan yang lama dengan yang baru. tiada siapa yang sempurna. tiada manusia yang sama. I took a year nak biasakan diri at here. and I hope I'll always istiqamah dalam menuntut ilmu duniawi and akhirat, insyaAllah. btw, can you imagine a person that smiling brightly while asking you about your old school and when you said you came from sg bert you can see something weird on her/his face. and someone that smiling brightly then tegur you first when pertama kali kita masuk sekolah tuh. ahha many type of people I met here, at this school.

so far a week bersekolah (last Wed till today) I feel really tired. too many homeworks you know!! dengan masalah transport nak balik laahh~~ aigoo~~ thats why this year I suka balik lambat sebab surely ibu will fetch me. lols. owh yeah kantin, ownernye dah baru. nothing special about that. haha. and I went to school early. I like it. fyi since standard 1 till early of last year I reached school at or before or after 7am but never lebih 7.15am. btw I miss few people from 4Fir last year~~ cant deny my feeling.. I'm SAMTiSHians but Iwill always be part of SAMSHSB family. lastly I'm sorry to any of you if I had done anything wrong to you~

pray for my success fid dunia wal akhirat ya.. may ALLAH swt bless each of you always, amin~ wassalamualaikum wbt.. =)